Finally, I got a chance to post a message! I went to Montauk!!! I arrived there at 4:30am and left at 3pm!!! So beautiful! Watching the sun rose from the sea level was amazing! I was so tired, though....hadn't slept at all....for 40 hours and kept driving around. Hopefully, I can take even more beautiful pictures next time! I need to upload my pictures later....

Haha!!! So enjoy....except my computer still can't go online. (I am using Billy's now.) After some works, I went to mid-town to shop and have a little window shopping. Then, I brought a bottle of water and sat in the Rockefeller Center's concourse to write. So enjoyable! People look at me....may be the bottle looked like a beer.....thanks God for giving me today!!!

So tired today.....I had struggled on my bed for the whole night . I just kept dreaming and I woke up a few times. Ar~~~! Don't know why.....may be too tired. Finally, I went there. Sigh...I am going to have a better plan next time. Gotta stay over night there next time. The chemistry is not my type at all. I couldn't be either care free or at peace.....I didn't take any "right-feel pictures" at all. Hopefully, it was solely my own feeling. I had a great expectation.....let's make it up next time.

I enjoyed to look at the endless sky without focus. Without cloud or plane. Just looked at it and called "My Lord, my God, I want to come closer to You." I know I need to close to Jesus, before I decide where/who should I serve. Yes, Lord. Day by day, You have given me a lot of graces. And, that was why I ashame of myself. I should be able to encourage and support others. I started to know why you let me went through those mistakes. I was too proud of my self-control and I worried too much that I was cold hearted. I am just a common man. Nothing special. I need to pray before I serve, before I talk. Humble.......

Happy birthday!!! Yesterday was your birthday! You are 26 now!

How do you feel? Getting old? More responsibilities? Independent?

I hope you are doing well and close to God. Yes, I keep my wish in my heart.

I am looking forward to meet you someday, and we will both glad to see each others' changes. We will praise the Lord for the grace and blessing in our lives. 

Thanks God that I met you in my life...and I started to learn what is love.

This was the greatest thing I did.

I need to continue, right?

I have been thinking of different matters this week.

Yea....why not go alone?

Is that the only way to treat my mom?

How can I be more mature?

Am I too self-centered recently?

I am not sure yet.......

Back from retreat la....very nice messages and brothers, sisters. Think a lot in there. I need wisdom from you, my Lord. So, I know what I should do to glorify you.

Mm...I think I should be more quiet....be more serious....

I am too careless la......stupid me.  

Sigh. Sheep. What should I do? Lord, you know my thoughts, my mind.

Thank you.

Red Eye.....weird movie....neither exciting nor boring.....

I keep thinking about different tasks and matters. Today, I finally understand what I should focus on.

The relationship with God, yes! As it determine things that I do....my direction of life.

As of myself, I need confidence. To gain it, I need to discipline. Talking of discipline, it involves my relationship with God...so, confidence.

One of my friend always complains I am too unpredictable in relationship. When my friend needs me or I needs my friend, I will be there all the time. However, when trouble fade, I fade too. Am I just got too much used to be alone? Sometimes, I just don't know how to balance my time for people. Or, I got use to be leave alone? A strong concept is already planted in my mind:

"I will be there when troubles come. Afterward, I don't expect you will be there anymore. If you keep in touch with me, it is a bonus for me. Don't want to expect anything. I just want to do my part."

People is shapen up by past, isn't it?

p.s. Girlfriend is another story la....