Last night.

I went back to Hong Kong.

The mountains and buildings were backlit by the golden orange radiant of sunset.

I didn't land there, though.

I forgot who was with me.

Mm...should be a long hair girl?

And, she told me to take more pictures...since it was rare.

Then, I saw I was working with a photographer to choose one of the three male models to work with the job.

Of course, it was a dream.

 

Weird...I can't find the bookmark...actually, any bookmark.

They should be inside my diaries...

Anyway...the one I mentioned before said,

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It means,

You met by chance and seperated by fate.

You should treasure the time of being together.

Choose the one you love and love, without any regret.

Whenever I want to give up, this words remind me.

 

Endless works...



I had my Wed off...and my mom had her Mon, Sat and Sun off.



So...I am more busy at work...



Even, my mom was in the store, she spent most of her time in reading.



So, I have to do more...



A lot of matters need to be taken care of...but, I don't have time...



But, it is ok.



It is nothing.





When was the hardest time in my life?



It damaged me, but it also helped me to face today.

I do not get too depress whatever happen to me.

I am being my own encourager.

So, I keep moving on.





Why did I fall for whom I tried to hold back? (not only once)



It is complicated...



But, I can say, because I am stupid.



It is because, if I need to hold back, it is already a bit too late.



Otherwise, I would keep a distance already.





Oh...remembered a bookmark my first best friend gave me years ago.



I should post it earlier...



A lot of thought as usual...stop right here.

 

I think it takes a lot of courage for a person to take up the step of "LEARNING HOW TO LOVE".

Why should an imperfect human being expect "God's love" from another imperfect human being?

I remember one husband said, "I know she is not perfect, but she is perfect for me."

Perfect or imperfect...it is all in your heart.

It is all about "how you feel".

 

When is the beginning of love?

While I was being hurt...

When I was disappointed...

I frustrated, but I still hang on (may take a period of time)...I still try to love that person.

Friends, families and the special someone.

When I still love that person, even, I know that person does not and will not love me.

When I stop myself to "like" her if I know it begin to bother her. (At least, I try...)

Anyway...I am still learning, and I do believe different people have different loves.

 

A few days ago, I had a conversation with a friend.



I had a random thought at that time and I asked her:



"What will you do if someone loved you deeply, but you were not really close?"



"How could he love me if he was not close to me...not understanding me? You are talking something shallow."



"Mm...may be...but, what if he was not driven by attraction...just simply loved you?"



Then, we talked about something else.



Now, I suddenly remember it and give it a second thought.



As for myself, I do believe love need time to be built.



However, does that mean a long time relationship must have a good understanding (or, deeper love)?



It's all depends on the personalities and maturity of both.





During the conversation, I also start to think one question.



Does we seek for love itself or what we can get from love or others?



Attention?



Security?



Pride?



Or, do we actually consider something really shallow?



But, we don't think we are so shallow?



So, we just ignore the fact?



Do we even know what we really need?



Or, we just want to get what we want?







I have my answers.



You...have yours.







What does that mean of "Let Jesus be your lord."?



It is giving up your own will...and follow His.



This is the salvation, it is the only way to live a fruitful life.



If you are still struggling...and keep asking why Christians are not
happier than non-Christians, it is because Christians are not
better...even in faith.



A "dried-out-Christian" is more bitter.



As for myself, I thought I did a lot for Him...and I asked "why".



Even though, He answered me by mercy, I refused.



I didn't want to listen and it was not what I want.



Now, I know(well, yes, I knew)...the secret is just KEEP TRYING.



The battle will never end, but it will be easier to fight with Jesus than alone.



Either, I quit or completely cooperate....



Or, I will get trap between the earth and hell...which is the living hell.



So...I can choose to go to "reality heaven" or "living hell"...



Since it is more impossible for me to live as evil as possible.

(well, if I went to hell anyway)



It is better for me to live as holy as possible.



I don't want to be a "traditional Christian" but, I can live a holy life, too.





A SPECIAL APOLOGY FOR THE PEOPLE I HURT AND SHAKEN THEIR FAITH.

Mm...sorry...protected posts...haha...and I just edit my list...haha....

May be I am talking about you?

Thank God for Sunday...I really enjoyed the whole day...St. Mark...and Sam's home...being with brothers and sisters.

 

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Continue from where I left off...



What I really want to say...



I don't have any promises with anyone...I do have promises to others.



I try my best to keep my promises.



Neither, I will wait for anyone, nor, I will be with anyone I don't love.



I can wait if the waiting is wanted.



Once I loved, I love forever.

Today.



I saw an accident involved seven vehicles...



There's accident everyday on Southern State Pkwy.



Next time...may be me...especially, I developed a habit to accelerate on curvy lane now.



Mm...why?



1. The SSP is like that.



2. I work late...so, I always want to go home fast.



3. It does feel good to pass other vehicles...which you can't have on a straight road.

I can talk now...finally.



However, I still have to be very careful.

Oh!!! Almost forgot!

I had a creepy dream!!!

A friend of mine, a guy touched me when I was asleep.

I pushed him away and beat him up.

Then, he told me that he was not really interested on me, but another friend, Alex!

So, sick!

I completely watched "The Notebook" at last.

It made me asked myself some questions...

Anyway, those are none of my business...

I don't need to be him.

I won't be him.

Haha...my Death Box is here now!

 

 

This is the actual one.

 

This is the envolop of the original drifts and cg.

 

 

 

 

This is the figure.

 

 

 

 

Skull and eye pack.

 

Art work album.

 

After I took these pictures, I started to appreciate the power of raw format file!

I am going to use it almost anytime from now on!

Haha...and it can let me take adventage of my 8 gb cf card!

 

 

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