I had a dream...

I went to a photography related school...

The food downstair were good...

One or two classmates were "ok".

So funny.

 

Mm...I felt so tired and sleepy today...

I didn't sleep well la...

And, I just noticed, I made myself totally exalted to sleep every night.

I asked myself...how long can I keep it this way?

May be couple years?

Will be fine...

 

Today, I was so frustrated...but, ok now.

I just finished my "home-work"...well, overtime.

Hopefully, I can settle everything tomorrow...

 

Mom is still noisy as usual.

She keeps complaining.

Although, she doesn't need to worry nor consider anything.

I think she really wants to leave here.

 

Last night, she said she wanted to go back to Beijing and just relax.

I didn't say anything and just waved my hand.

Then, I told her it is fine...and I don't have to be in New York nor this side of the earth anymore.

I told her I was here just because of them.

I wanted to go back.

I can learn photography elsewhere.

I can do business everywhere.

After that, she got very excited...and told me what she is going to do in Beijing...

 

I had a thought last week...and I saw it in a comic again.

If my purpose of life is to live for "other people", then, is it sad or is it more meaningful?

Will I become happier?

I am going to be happier, if I don't ever think about myself again.

Always try to think about others, but don't need anyone.

Don't choose...people.

Mm...stop right here...it starts to sound depressing.