一家的幸福。
我的心應可以容納更多的東西。
我的肩膀應可以承擔更多的責任。
兒女情長，英雄氣短。
這句說話在腦海中不斷的徊響。

很多人認為我要求太高，甚至有牧者也讙我不要太高要求。
我最近的反思卻是覺得，我要求太低。
喜歡過的，大概沒讓她感到她的生命對我有多特別。
覺得我對很多人都好，而只是隋隋便便的喜歡。

其實，從不合襯。
耐心地尋找一個合襯的吧。

客觀看我的現况，
一個更廣的心胸，
更大的志向，
對我來說，才是最重要的。
現在不過只是為「十年磨劍」作準備吧。

 

 

Well, it is a very special day!

I finally tried Chablis including some Grand Cru!!!

Some Fuisse...I love the Vieilles Vignes!

Chassagne Montrachet "Clos st Marc" 1er Cru!!!

Corton Charlemagne Grand Cru!!!

(although it is $170/bottle, I enjoy "Clos st Marc" more...under $100/bottle)

My first sip of French Riesling, oh~~mine~!

Surprise!!!

After I tried some, the top gave me a BIGGER SURPRISE!

Also, the Gewu...oh...forgot to see the price...yeah...

Gewu cost double??? I can stay with Riesling then...

Volnay Vieilles Vignes"...yeah, another VV!!!

Echezeaux Grand Gru!!!!! The legendary burgundy!!!

Hermitage "La Petite Chapelle" 2005, nice, nice, nice~!

Santi make great Amarone!!! My favorite wine!!!

Proemio 2004 is BIG, complex, concentrated, spice, fruit forward with exceptional nose!!!

 

Haha!!! After I enjoyed the nice wines and foods, I concluded my tasting on the rooftop with the warm sun and breeze.

 

Freedom is regained.

Life is still full of xxxxxxxxxxx on and on.

However, I got my "cool" back.

Even I am busy all the time, but I enjoy my life!

My eye hurt before and need a long time to recover, but hey! I am alright!

Appreciate what I got (from God), like my job...and nothing I ask more.

I don't feel lonely anymore. (doesn't mean I don't want friends)

But, I really like "Alone, but not lonely".

 

Thank you.

Thank you.

Thank you.

 

 

My eye is hurt again.

Need to rest.

Not going to church tomorrow.

Make me so tired.

Tears and running nose because of the pain...and I was still working.

Gosh! I still think of her in this moment.

Don't think, because it's not her need. (neither do I)

 

Here we go.

This is the third week.

I will not have any day off till med-May.

Received a call from a friend.

When we talked about relationship, she mentioned I spent so much time with my mom and how my mom needed me all the time.

I am so different now.

Ten years can really change a person...and the world around.

Actually, I have a good relationship with my mom before she went to HK.

It is just different.

Such a fool, I am.

Focus.

 

I think...may be I should just leave.

Give a little bit more of time and effort...

If the same...then...

It is better than leaving in hopelessness.

 

Why?

Morning is such a pain.

It is not because I have to wake up and go to work everyday.

It is the dreams...and lead to day-dreamings...double up the pain.

It takes me at least an hour of work to settle me down.

It actually reflects the truth...that I am bearing so much of emotions which I suppress.

 

 

I realized the reason I hadn't experienced God's presence...

I hadn't follow Him step by step and empty myself to be used.

His Grace is usually showed upon difficulties...especially, during serving.

He can change me, if I completely surrender to Him.

 

Very tired...may be too many thoughts.

I realized I was bothered in late afternoon.

I am just...emotionless...tired...headache...

 

Last night, I had to hold my chin, closed my eyes and rest at the 2nd row.



It was not because I was tired. (I did need to rest, though)



I surprised myself once again.



I teased myself once again.



So, stupid.



However, my heart was not troubled...it is kinda complicated.



It helped me to diagnose and understand my heart.





The pictures...as I said, "I tried."



Thanks for brothers and sisters.



Praise to the Lord!