I have read it...

I was unexpectedly happy...which last for an hour.

I don't know.

It should be a good thing, no matter what.

I dont' know what will happen later, but, I am kind of like relieved.

 

Left eye...so painful.

Tears keep dropping from it.

Does it want to make up the tears that I hid?

Just pretend to be "sensative", haha~!

 

But, it is worse than ever...

I should care more about myself.

I don't care enough...

I hadn't wanted myself to eat less, because I don't want to feel like depression... 

So, I keep eating a lot.

I keep doing "whatever" to myself, while I am saying "I should do this and that".

That's not good.

I am not good enough.

 

In the good side, I start to care about people a little bit more...

 

天意吧...今天才post 得了。

 

差不多了吧？

無論中間有沒有誤會，現在也顯得多餘。

那時候決心結束，為何還想做朋友？

或許妳從沒相信我是單單的喜歡妳一個。

自私的我為了能好好渡過那段時間，

任由妳以為我另有目標或者餘情未了，

明知會更難過但也要留下多一點點。

那時候的粗心大意成了不必要的傷害。

 

多謝妳的決絕，彷如陌路，使我只要面對自己的心。

妳究竟是怕面對，還只是一味的討厭？

我知到我要放下，但總是希望可以再次相聚，然後釋然的說「永別」。

我會把所有我從前喜歡過的人全忘掉。

然後，把堆積在心頭妳的點滴，珍而重之的一一抹掉。

Time Square 的那段時間、車廂中的空間、一起嘗的餐廳、

與妳學過的事；一言一行，使人生氣或微笑的。

然後，全心全意的愛一個人，更加更加地愛。
 

我會好好珍惜妳留下的東西。

上次看到妳的笑容，使我安心了一些。

希望妳可以遇到一個人，

讓妳真真正正的去愛，

使妳可以把心中的陰霾抹去，

更讓妳完全的付出，

更親近，更會聽主的聲音，

使祂領妳到清水邊溪水旁。

本來想這就...永別了。

但，竟然終於可以把一切全然的交託。

感恩。

我不會再找妳了。

隨緣（祂）吧。

好嗎？

Tasting at Yonker

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Children pictures from SG event.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Yesterday, when I heard the pictures need to be taken, I tried to fit in the job immediately.



Haha...actually, I didn't know what they really need...



I tried to understand, but I don't think I did a good job.



I rushed home to take my "fisheye" anyway.



I was so focus...



I am still madly in love with Photography...





Ar~~~mm~~talked so late...





Still guessing "why?"



Still seeking "what?"

...this is my first two weeks of 08...

早幾天突然發現，自己的想法常受她影響，像是為了她而活一樣。

無論是否背道而馳。

今天早上又不自覺的想到那時候自己不對的地方。

自己也覺得那時沒有什值得欣賞的地方，只是一未的obsess...

沒出息啊...！

但這樣子好嗎？

會反省是好...但如果變成活在過去的陰影的話...

我不想自己追幻影跑。

白眼。

也許我太敏感。

哈哈！我表現得這樣自信啊！

孤傲離羣的我，其實並沒有把自己看得很高，

只不過是自尊心強。

除了那兩件事叫我介懷之外，

在缺少教會生活和侍奉上，也叫我有所缺欠。

反正其實我幾乎從沒有覺得自己很好。

自吹自擂，其實主要是說笑而已，卻變成了一種形象呢！

以前的我...嗎？

哪一個比較好？

只是「時間」，決定了「現在」。

半天假，與朋友共享Cesari Amarone 01。

開瓶後不久，濃厚的香氣就飄出來了，

友人到時，酒的原味差不多都打開了。

細飲大談今昔種種，搭佩着燒肉，有意想不到驚喜。

一路走過來，經歷過種種，不容易。

友情很像酒，有些愈陳愈有味，有些一不小心就錯過了。

星期日下定了決心，無論如何也要好好準時回去敬拜。



回想起來，我是每經一事愈不想付出。



青蛙當多了，還會甘心一再沉下去嗎？





也許我變了蛇，正在夏「冬眠」。



如果我們叫別人去做青蛙時，不要驚奇那人後來反成了「海膽」。



請不要judge。









我自己又有多久沒有一心一意的愛神愛人呢？





很想親近主，所以才盡快回去。



跟很多人踫了面，已很滿足了。



看那表情有些擔心，但神好像已有衪的作為吧！

欣然的往惟信查經，很有趣。



到唯愛時，更搞笑！



弟兄姊妹還是很天真無邪啊！

 

 

I started to read "Les Gouttes de Dieu".

 

 

Brief update for these few weeks.

 

Work.

I went to tasting with my sale rep.

I had fun and took some pictures.

I taste over 40 kinds of wine and spirit, but my face didn't even turn red...

Luckily, I am only going to be an expert of them, but not alcoholic.

The best part of the job is when customer came back and thanks for my recommendations.

Especially, I helped them to pick wine for their supper and it became part of their wonderful night.

 

Family.

Grandma suddenly passed away a few weeks ago.

I stayed with my mom every night and she feels better now.

She shared little stories with me.

We just found out her father was a businessman, before China "turn red".

She said no wonder my brother and son are doing business.

My grandma was "thousand-gold-lady".

It means she was not very good at house work, but she was good at music, chess, painting..so on.

 

Friends.

Just too many break ups...

Spent so much time with them...

 

Myself.

I just thought too much.

Ups and downs.

Fool.

 

Dreams.

I met a friend with a guy next to her.

After the guy left, she told me she didn't thought he was so serious about her.

I just did my job "listen".

Then, I woke up and had another dream.

The other one was little bit of business, love and evil, kinda movie like....