Haha...thank you for clearifying "not-secured" for me...

So, I was wrong, then.

Finally, appointment set.

Last night, when I drove...I said to myself, it was not too bad.

The night actually looked more beautiful.

The light spread like it was through the rain.

I thought, good that it is only my left eye.

I actually started to feel a little bit drowsy and tipsy today.

After the long time headache from last few weeks...now, eye...

I closed my eyes all the time during worship today.

Haha...I remembered most of the lyrics...haha...

It actually helped me to concentrate.

I don't know how.

There is nothing.

Don't have time to be spent.

Just a testing...

If you don't like insects...don't look...

Ok...here is the close-up test...

I will use a tripod and more light next time.

Hope you like it...

Headache...for 48 hours.....

The headache have last for 24 hours...

I couldn't sleep...and...don't know about tonight.

I finallly brought the len and found my filters...

I am back to the field again!

Haha...will have new picture soon...

I can finally apply my ideas!!!

Business dinner No. 2.

A small step...a small improvement.

Hopefully, things will be better.

How did you deal with it in these three years?

The places, the items, the foods and the words...

So many things trigger you about the past.

It doesn't hurt that much now...but it is still there...

It became part of you...

It is still affecting your life.

Wish you will have the strength to move forward and break it through.

You will not be "lazy" about it anymore...

You will have faith again.

You will love again.

Where is the turning point?

By forgetting, forgiving, accepting, convincing or something else?

Little by little...walk away or walk through the pit.

Today, I have seen the rainbow in the sky up high...

It is so beautiful...the sunset is nice, too...

It is good enough.

Hallelujah.

I spent some time talking to myself again.



When did I start to call myself "stupid"?



Why did I say that?


It is not "stupid".



It should be a good thing.



It should be obvious.



I should think in a total different method/way/point of view.



Let me learn from the beginning again.







I am going to see doc next week...haha...may be movie after?

I think that's more I can do for my family...

I finally went to watch movie by myself again, yeah!!!

It was my first time to go 188 th street theater after I moved around here!

Comment about "Evan Almight"...relax...a few good quotes.

Yea, that's how we receive the gifts...by learning.

Haha...but, very frustrated during the process...

其實從小也覺得自己不「可愛」。



從不願討好人的我，也厭煩那些虛浮的讚賞。



長大了也許更不「可愛」。



明知道要如何卻過不了自己，總是在改變和老路之間徘徊。



這也有一點造就了「濕柴」般的感情模式。





從最初的熗眼難燃；



到熾烈的狂焰；



直至把自己燒成了飛灰，但底下的餘温卻歴久不散。







我的眼嗎？



左眼視力一再減退、疲勞、疼痛。



用新眼鏡後好了一段時間，但最近又嚴重了起來。

是時候找出原因了。

突然想起自己不夠愛惜自己，



這樣子可以好好的愛人嗎？



總是這樣無所謂。





我想妳的心意我己領會，多謝。



妳做的不錯，其他是這人的事。